My Fishes and Loaves

Dear Lord, today I read yet one more book that confirmed to me that You want me to live out all my talents and giftings, that You do not want me to hold back in fear, insecurity, or in a “just enough” mentality. Lord, would You help me to live boldly, offering my fishes and loaves and trusting You to multiply them beyond what I thought possible? In Jesus' mighty name amen.

Seriously y’all. God has been repeating to me lately. I need to step out boldly with my fishes and loaves. I keep looking at them like they aren't enough instead of allowing God to do His multiplication thing!

Someone beautifully wise in my life shared what God told her:

"Don't limit God by limiting you."

Don't do it! Don't limit Him because you are busy looking at who you are instead of who He is and what He is capable of! I mean... so many times in the Bible God does MIRACLES with ordinary people who were just OBEDIENT.

That's it! They were willing.

• The boy who was willing to share his lunch got to be a part of feeding a multitude. (John 6)

• The fisherman who was rough around the edges led 1,000s to Christ. (Acts 2:41-47)

• The cup-bearer did project management to rebuild the wall and led the people through it. (Nehemiah)

• The servant girl led her master to God's prophet to receive healing. (2 Kings 5)

• The Jewish girl who got kidnapped won the favor of a Persian King and saved her people. (Esther)

All of these people were willing in the hands of God.

I’ll say something raw and honest…starting this blog has been hard.

I have been told that I will be a writer and even write a book someday.

I have also been told that my writing is “un-publishable” and "not interesting".

A lot of people have opinions y’all.

And. If I'm not careful. I might let my need to meet people’s expectations trump my desire to please God. Or I might bury my talents in the dirt. I could say that I'm not enough.

But that would be claiming my fear of failure is bigger than my faith. AND I really don’t like that idea.

A song by Joseph O’Brien's song Growing Up hit me in the right spot the other day:

“You'll do well to take most words with a grain of salt. Cause most answers don't reside in human thoughts."

I realize I let too much of my worth come from the opinions of others…even well-meaning Christians that have come and gone in my life.

But if God is asking of me to step forward I really want to do so!!!

I want to be so in tune with you that fear passes away Oh Lord. Dear Lord, I truly want to offer You all of my fishes and loaves. In Jesus’ name amen.

OH!! One more thing. I mean I can't end this blog post until I link this song: Josiah Queen - Fishes and Loaves

Ok, byeeee.

with joy,

MJ