But God, I'm Not Enough

MJ
Apr 29, 2024
3 min read

Updated: Jan 11, 2025

But God, I’m Not Enough

Dear Lord, You tell me all things things I can do. When someone gives me a compliment…I don’t always believe them. Even more so, every time I go to do something I'm shaken by the deep fear that I'm not enough. I am not sure why I struggle with self-image in this way. It is hurting the way I operate in life both with others and myself. It is hindering me from embracing my talents and myself as someone made in Your image. Help me to see how You love me Lord.

I imagined a beautiful image of the Father’s eyes…in the reflection of His eyes I finally saw me. His love, adoration, and joy when looking at me creased the wrinkles besides them. He saw me as His child, tumbling throughout life, learning, and He loved it whenever I leaned on Him for support. He embraced me with deep comfort when I wanted a hug. He soothed my tears and understood my hurts.

His love…is so much more than I ever understood.

It is the blood in His arms dripping and grace covering us. It is His Fathership over us. It is His nurturing love. His humble servant leadership. His joyous strength. His just might.

He is deeply longing for us to be in fellowship with Him.

Jealous for our time. Longing for us to spend time with Him.

Lord, thank you for this revelation of Your love.

AND here I was hating myself. No good daddy would want His daughter to hate who they are. But to be honest, I long continued to justify my self-hatred as holy.

I confused being humble with being self-critical.
I justified my low self-esteem as a virtue.
I assumed God would be pleased if I went ahead and judged myself.

Maybe just maybe if I went ahead and told God I wasn’t enough it would spare me the fear of not being enough for Him.

These lies are rooted in performance. Or maybe even deeper, a fear of the loss of God's love. In the idea that God needed me to reach a point of success before He could love me. Most of these lies probably came from personal trauma in my childhood, but God had not done anything but say He loved me.

God never asked me to perform before offering love. God’s love is unconditional and free to receive.

These doubts were preventing me from operating in the freedoms that Christ had already given me. God didn’t call me to that. He would not steal peace- that fits the enemy's description. No, God has called me to walk in grace and freedom that He has gifted me.

For some time now I have been doing war like in Craig Groeschel's book, asking God to rewrite my view of me into His view of me. If He says He loves me I want to believe Him. If He says that I am chosen by Him, then I am chosen. If God asks me to do a crazy hard thing that others will not understand, then I would rather his unconditional love than to please people.

None of these are going to happen overnight but I am going to walk them out, proclaim them, and tell the enemy to get the heck out of my life.

I don’t think that I am alone in this.

Maybe your view of God’s love have warped your view of how beautiful you are in His sight. Maybe you cannot walk out His full calling because you think you are not enough. You don’t need to be enough. Jesus is enough. He will always, always, be enough.

But guess what? You are probably more than you realize.

You are beautiful. Psalm 139

You are chosen (handpicked for the task). John 15:16

You are not rejected. Isaiah 41:9b

You are not abandoned. Deut. 31:6

You are given a hope and future. Jeremiah 29:11

You are loved. John 3:16

You belong. John 17:10

You are a child of Christ. John 1:12

You are given power. 2 Timothy 1:7

You are made in the image of God. Genesis 1:27

That is just of the start of what God has to say about us. His Word is PACKED with beautiful things about how He sees us.